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Envy Takes a Holiday

As I spiral into Cronedom, I meet again the original wound, my imperfection. As Jung taught with active imagination, it is a good idea to engage and dialogue with the energy associated with whatever surface problem one is dealing it looks like my perfection~ism is some adolescent monkey! I have named her Little Envy.

When she spies another monkey who looks like she has the perfect life--well off she goes!! Scampering, chimping about, searching for all the ways she could be like THAT perfect one, have really cool friends, cool stuff, and have it ALL. Even if it is only in her own mind.

So it would seem we have an oppositional defiant monkey on our hands. Little Envy in her primate way is trying to do what many humans do: Control, manipulate, pretend...

It must be a psychic compensation for KNOWING we are human. The opposite of trusting. The opposite of trusting the mystery. Of trusting our destinies.

Without being Darwinian, perhaps this is an evolutionary task? I can't help but think this monkey energy has some usefulness. Something yet to give?

Little Envy really became a problem four years ago. After due psychological diligence, it was time for her to go away. Little Envy decided to go on holiday. She visited family and friends. Relaxed. Just hung out.

I haven't seen her since. Without tempting fate, it looks like it's a permanent holiday.


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