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Failure

The theme of my recurring anxiety dreams is failure to function. This failure manifests itself in my failure to make devices work. In years past, the device was a telephone. Maybe the dial wouldn't turn, or I couldn't see the numbers. More recently, the devices have included cell phones, iPads, navigation software, and remote controls for the TV. All have worked slowly or not at all for a variety of reasons.

These dreams occur after I have been in social situations. I'll get home and begin to second guess what I have said and wonder how someone might have felt about what I said or didn't say. That night in dream time, the call won't go through, my iPad won't open, or the navigation system is slow.

These failure-to-function dreams inform me that, yes, social situations make me anxious. But they don't let me know what to do about it.

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