birds in a barrel's mission is to release creative nonfiction into the wild.

40 Days & 40 Writes is its first project.

Letting Go

How does one prepare to let go? For letting go is the thing that I have been most unprepared to do.
As a new parent, I was unprepared for the love I felt for my new born. I was also woefully unprepared for the daily care he required as well as how much my life would change.

I am as equally unprepared for the ebb and flow of my physical abilities as I age. When did it become so difficult to get up from a sitting position on the floor?

So as I pass through the ages and stages of life, I have come to understand more fully Jung's thoughts about the process of aging:

"Thoroughly unprepared, we take the step into the afternoon of life. Worst still, we take this step with the false presupposition that our truths and our ideals will serve us as heretofore. But we cannot live the afternoon of life according to the program of life's morning, for what was great in the morning will be little at evening and what in the morning was true, at evening will have become a lie."

So on this day of the summer solstice, I prepare for elderhood by attempting to appreciate the joy of the moment. I try to remain curious: have the plums ripened? Is the gardenia in bloom?

One Bullet and a Gun

Times I've Found Myself Not Ready and I Mean Really