birds in a barrel's mission is to release creative nonfiction into the wild.

40 Days & 40 Writes is its first project.

Two Memories

who knows
my dad
I sure
did not
I have
just one
thought of
him when
I was
young and
he still
lived with
us be-
fore the
divorce

it was
Sunday

and we
came home
from the
church and
the house
smelled good
dad had
made food
eggs and
such and
he did
not go
to church
i found
out a
long time
later

i know
lots of
things from
my pre-
school years
but just
this one
has dad
in it
why's that
I am
afraid

of what
i might
know be-
low some
surface

afraid

i think
i loved
my dad
i know
for sure
he had
a need
to feel
love from
someone

i doubt
he felt
what love
i think
i had
for him
i know
i was
dumbstruck

when he
killed him-
self and
i felt
sorry

i have
one more
picture

in my
mind from
the time
when i
was small
he sat
on the
end of
the couch
getting

gifts for
christmas

nervous

but i
don't think
he lived
with us
then al-
ready.

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